To my love

It is your birthday today! and boy am I glad that you are with me another year. You deserve everything this world has to offer. Such a kind and loving man you always are, you are perfectly mine. Thank you for being so incredibly patient with me, I know I can be a handful but I know and I believe that God himself appointed you to me to save me from myself. Thank you for working your butt off five days a week for me, thank you for never ever giving up and always loving me with your whole heart.

Happy Birthday Andy! I Love You.

I am not having such a great day. Tomorrow is Andy’s birthday so I am having some fun getting everything together, but me myself am not feeling too great today. It’s a bit scary being able to see my depression coming at me about to hit me but I can’t do much about it.

Marcus helps :)

My cigarettes always end up bent, beat up, and very close to but never quite breaking.

Andy thinks it’s hilarious

My father.

Lord knows, I adore him with everything i’ve got. Today he crossed a well defined line. He threatened my mother’s life. The man who I ran to when I got hurt (I was a daddy’s girl), the man who understood me, the man who let me wear whatever I wanted even if I looked completely ridiculous, this man scared the living shit out of me today. 

I never thought it would come to this. Knowing that my parents marriage is over hurts like hell even though i’m all “grown up”

The Frugal Fernandez

My beautiful niece Roseann *

Andy and I are moving…we will still be in Bakersfield (sigh) but glad to be getting out of this godforsaken house. So, after visiting the most awesome apartment and meeting the neighbors we took a trip to the grocery store. We stocked up on Ramen and Mac&Cheese, because the apartment is a bit expensive for our budget so we won’t be eating out this month or making anything fancy.

I am so crazy excited, I might break out in song and dance any second…literally.

*Photo has nothing to do with the post, but she’s gonna be a heart-breaker, right?

Treasure every beating heart that sets your soul on fire

I am in an insane amount of emotional pain right now. I have hurt the people I love most. Why can’t life, love, and people be simple? Why in the fucking world is everything so complicated?

I stayed up late last night, and when I came to bed, Andy had this on the door for me.

It reads:

Hey babe, In case you don’t wake up when you come to bed I want you to know that I can’t imagine my life without you. Honestly sometimes I can’t believe you actually married me, thank you for letting me be your husband I cherish that title the most. One day I will be lucky enough to add father to that list. Here’s to my beautiful wife :)

Love- Andy.